But this blog is mostly about my weight loss journey, and so there are things I must address along those lines that aren't as much fun to think about. I'm going to start with the positives, though. I started (very beginner level) hiking, and think that in it I've found an activity that marries several of my interests. I'm planning on having it factor into my 2012 plans in a larger way. I was also lucky enough to get an adult trike! Because my knees are so week, riding my regular bike has become difficult - I don't feel that stable on it, and so it spent most of this year in the garage. The structure of the trike will allow me to use it without those worries. So that's also going to be a major player in my 2012 activity plans.
From a weight-loss perspective, well, there's no easy way to say it. It was a disaster. I gained weight. too much. I was okay in the first half of the year - sort of plateau-ing, but generally holding my course. Once I got back from San Francisco, I just lost it. And while I spent quite of bit of time trying to be on plan, I got very sloppy and lazy. I allowed problems with my knees and feet to knock me off kilter, and seemed unable to rouse myself to more positive action for any significant enough amount of time to be effective. I struggled emotionally and mentally, and ended up in a vicious cycle that many of us know all too well. Sadness led to eating, which led to weight gain, which led to sadness.... and so on and so on.
The good news in all of this is that it's given me some real motivation. I feel like I've snapped out of it (the holiday weekend notwithstanding), and am ready to move forward and make 2012 a MUCH better and more productive year. I'm working now on setting up my goals for the year, and making sure that I build plans to achieve them. I am in charge, and I can do better. I will do better!